the past two weeks have been tumultuous to say that least. not in my life, although much's changed and also left unchanged.

as a woman, what does it mean to love? to find a mate? to be with that single person in the whole world who's really part of our jigsaw puzzle? so many things are transient in life. friends, partners, plans, events, feelings, things, money... so how can we be sure that this is the one person? i agree that nobody is indispensable in this world. but with these people around us - people whom we truly want to be with - life will be much more fun, with this much more joy: making everything this much easier. isn't what we all seek simply happiness? so if happiness means to allow friends to be who they are, to simply accept that so much of life is not within our control, or to simply be content with your lot, why struggle against it all?

we all make choices; about what we want, what we pursue, what something means to us, what we wanna hear, what we wanna believe in... with so many choices, if we can't come to terms with that we are human and thus, err, how can you live within your own skin and still be comfortable?

mistakes are what we view them to be.
lessons are what we should see.

Finally, my Firefox's working seamlessly with Java! Yay!!! I'd wanna apologise for the avalanche of photo uploads tonight, only I love my pictures too much to do so! Haa. Anyways, time for me to crash now.

at the risk of sounding like a broken tape recorder, i am a really busy person. haha. like who the crap cares anyway. however, i'm definitely taking full responsibility for the lack of trying to blog, even once in a while. once i got used to the idea of having just a photo blog to share my life with my friends online, it got to me that most of my friends are actually on facebook already. yet, i continued to upload photos faithfully to my multiply page... that is, until recently, when, in full support of Mozilla's attempt at setting a WGR of the Most Downloads in 24 Hours for Firefox, i upgraded my firefox to the latest 3.0 version (it's since been upgraded, again, to v3.01). only to be aghast and completely puzzled by the browser's incompatibility with the java requirements of multiply's photo uploading tool. like, i tried what must have been a-gazillion times to work the damn tool before realising that it's probably too buggy and crashing my entire firefox. hence... my absence in the multiply-gosphere.

right. that was a short and sweet explanation... urgh. i'm constantly frustrated by my consistent inability to be precise and succinct in my blog entries, or my conversations with friends, etc. seriously, anything to do with words, i tend to be really long-winded. add to that to the inability to use the choice words and incessant digression from the main point, voila, you've got this overly verbacious crazy fruit of me. like, wtf.

i didn't used to have this problem. rather, my speech was never really impeded by these problems until i started teaching teaching. i suppose i can always blame it on the occupational requirement to erm... explain, explain and explain to all stakeholders. whahaha. they say children bring out the best and worst in all teachers, i beg to differ. i say children bring out the best in teachers and pass on the worst to teachers. oh... how i miss the little ones.

so much's going on in my life right now, yet nothing much's really going on. like, i'm in a really comfortable place right now, where i feel happy most of the time and less of the same ol' frustrations and such. mostly, i give thanks for the friends i have around me. it's people like ting and jena who actually keep me grounded most of the time. and crazy nuts like raf and cml who remind me that i have alot of life to be thankful for. =) heart heart. one thing i seriously dun appreciate though, is that they all think i dun change, it's they who changed or get influenced by me. like, wtf. seriously!

on another note, i so wanna watch hellboy 2, red cliff, the dark knight, etc. so many good films. so little time before the next semester starts. lala.

-abrupt end- (due to freezing conditions in my room, i've decided to just snuggle into my duvet and sleep.)

I'm on my way to becoming a zombie. Like seriously. I haven't had this many assignments and tests at the same time. Ever. Running on less than 5 hours of sleep now - since freakin' Wednesday MORNING. Wtf. I can't believe this. Just finished the analysis for 102. That's after pulling the all-nighter last night for 203. Seriously, I can't be bothered, but they're all group work. So I've gotta pull up my socks and just do whatever whatever. Urgh.

Today's Good Friday. Cuz of the assignments meetings, I couldn't head up to Fraser's Hill with Faith and co. Gah!!! Trust Jeffery to MSN via his Blackberry over in Malacca after they had a great meal. I hate my life already. Gotta go sleep now. 102 meeting at Novena whatever at 9am. That's 7 freakin' am on the alarm! Wtf. And it's a freakin' long weekend!

BAHHHHHH.

Ting's in BKK now. I wish I'm on hols too. Urgh.

In the midst of the madness ensconcing me - assignments up to my fat neck I like to tell people - and the hunger that plagues me all the time, I found someone who actually sells really weird flavours of lollipops! I mean, we're talkin' absinthe and maple-bacon! Wtf right! Haa.

"Our Absinthe Lollipops are really freaking awesome. And we say that without even an ounce of hubris- people go crazy (not like, cut-your-ear-off crazy, tho) for them. We're pretty sure they're the ultimate party favor- the combination of absinthe's mystique and the inherent sexiness of lollipops is a pretty explosive one.

They are made with real (and completely legal!) absinthe, with no artificial colors or flavors at all. Cheers!"

Wow... Like totally wow. I'll bet some of my friends are salivating for them already. Haa.

Lolliphile can be found here.

I haven't cried as hard in a long long time.

Couldn't seem to stem the flow of tears as I was reading the last bit of Marley and Me, the book, written by John Grogan, about his pet companion of 13 years. I suppose this sudden out pour of tears was triggered in most part when I drew the parallels between Toto and Marley. As I drew closer to the end of the book, as the narrative centred around Marley's impending end to his wondrous journey with Grogan and his family, the tears just kept rolling down my cheeks - with Toto intercepting them with his incessant licks. I had to hoard and hide the snot-filled tissue pieces before throwing them deep into the bin, so that he wouldn't chow them down... Urgh (the amused kinda urgh which only dog owners who've experienced this kinda stuff can empathise with).

Dog lovers would know what Grogan talks about in his book: the unconditional love from our dogs, the crazy dopey looks on their faces when high on glee, the constant companionship they provide us with, the limitless loyalty they have towards us, etc. All these are traits in dogs which so endear them to the human race.

I love Toto. Like Grogan said in his book, if you give them your heart, they will give you theirs. I really believe that. Dogs are simple creatures. And very often, they are more capable of giving than us. I just wonder if my heart's big enough, to give like they do.

Toto's nearing his 7th birthday. That's roughly 49 human years. Wow. He's older than I am. Although, he's also naughtier, more rambunctious and totally lovable than me. =)

I Toto. Lots and lots. XOXO - the slobberish kind. =P

Abso-fuckin'-lutely gorgeous! I especially love the gym dance shoes!!!!! OMG... It's so pretty! I so so so want! Her stuff are always so clean! Hmmm... I wonder when the shoes'll be available in SG.

Just a random word for the title, although it does feel apt now that I see it. Been some time since I last wrote anything, except for the little bits here and there for my photo postings. Hmmm... Let's see... ^_^

Haven't been very active socially - evident in the tiny social groupings I've been keeping, which consist largely of my cousins, Gor and Ting. I prefer nua-ing at home these days. Hee. Can't seem to wake up for service on Saturdays also. For the life of me, someone invent a workable alarm clock for me! Urgh.

Grandma's situation ain't good. She's currently bedridden from the pain caused by osteoporosis affecting her spinal area. She's scheduled for a key-hole surgery in a month's time, so she's currently on plenty of painkillers and such. =\

The past coupla weeks flew by in a blink. Last week's holidays disappeared just like that. Chinese New Year this year's a little different, since my grandma's ill. I stayed over some and was at her place for the most part of the week. Didn't go visiting with Jiam and sent the boys along instead. Heh. Staying at home the first day of CNY was weird, since I've never done that before. It was a good experience cuz I got to meet the relatives I haven't seen in a long long while.

Had the usual family lunch at Da Yee's on the second day of CNY as per family tradition. It was fun to catch up with my older cousins - brought back tonnes of memories about my travels and stuff. Woot! Dinner at Pins' place with his family was fun! Jaden and River were both so active and cute! Since Chia, JH and I hadn't seen the infamous pictures of Edison Chen's sexcapades with the various female leads and Pins had some of them in his mac, we all piled into his study and did a "WOW!!!! WTF?!!?!? She's looks damn cui la!" kinda thing as we waited for dinner to be served. Wahahaha. Trust Pins to come up with the tagline of Abalone and 发菜 for the pictures. These two things will never sound the same for us again. Ever.

Finally, adjourned to Sherms' place after to meet up with the rest of the people for a bit of ban luck and Spizza. The official time we're supposed to be at Sherms place was 7pm and we (including her) left Pins' only past 830pm, naturally, we found Kai and Jensen already there. Wahahaha. Luckily Shin was home to open the door for Kai first! Anyways, I left midway through The Host cuz it was getting late and I was tired. Wahahaha... Since when did I start feeling like the night's getting late. Wtf.

Anyways, Chia's involved in this white-collar boxing thing. Something of a reality-show styled showcase, where the organisers selected 9 pairs of white-collar professionals off a pool of participants and train them all from scratch to spar against one another in a non-competition at Fort Canning. Think the official name of this event's called Fight Club. I imagine Chia to look rather good as the stand in on the movie's poster in place of Edward Norton. Wahahaha. It's a charity event and all proceeds go to the Singapore Cerebral Palsy charity organisation. Interesting. And Chia got to really really buff up his already lean body. Woot!

Pins is heading to an apprenticeship at Lucas Film. Seriously, I think he's a real genius with some of his ideas. So happy for him - notice my triple text style. Wahahaha. Woot! =) Yuan's leaving for Australia to start on the practical leg of his pilot training soon. And Henry's just tasted a divine huat kueh thing at this Japanese restaurant at Tanglin Shopping Centre which I so wanna try out too! Heh. Kai's finally free-er now that it's the low period in the creative industry.

I've just added a pair of harman/kardon speakers to my already nice lookin' computer set. Woot! Lovely sounds coupled with great graphics. What more can I ask for! Wahahaha. Just polished off Juno and Atonement last night. Plus the ditzier Sydney White. Heh. I'm fast becoming a movie junkie. Hmmm... ^o^

Oh! And I've finally finished tagging all 3000+ of my songs. So everything's been renamed properly and their song properties are all neat and tidy now - after at least 6 man-hours of hard work at the PC (4 of which were devoted to figuring out the software). Thank God I managed to retrieve most of the lost data from my iPod, albeit all in a mess.

School work's piling up and deadlines are looming. So I guess it's time I end my unofficial holidays and see that I get the work done. Ciao.

Seriously, I suspect it's the lull of life that's makin' me so lazy. It doesn't help that the weather motivates me to SLEEP, instead of doing something more constructive, all the time. Several individuals have been tellin' me that I seem to be having a great time (read: always out!). Hmmm... Seriously, I've been lazy. Going out only when I need to get somethings done or eat. And along the way, should I snap some pictures, it's cuz those're the only times I'm out. Come to think of it, I've scaled back so much on my social activities that I really hardly see anyone these days. I'm usually out early in the evening or something and then home by say, 11pm. On a weekend, mind you. -_^ I usually got out for the one thing that really gets me - FOOD. =P Hee...

My back's achin' a little. I wonder why. Hmmm...

Since CNY's like just around the corner, I should really start clearing my room. Not that there's much to clear, only things I should get rid of, like old clothes, old magazines, etc. And I'm thinking of reorganizing the space in my storage areas again. Wahaha. That's the third time this year. I mean... Before the CNY.

As mentioned in brief previously, I got a new phone. The new Samsung (Yes! Samsung again! But I dig their products can!?) F330. It's a good phone. Although it's bigger and heavier than my old phone (Yes! Also a Samsung!!!!), it's got great music playing capabilities and I like the white-ness of it. Blah blah blah...

I've also been busy over the week, transferring my stuff from the old PC to the new one. Finally managed to collect my freebie from Starhub's crappy redemption store at Funan last week. Crappy cuz I've had to wait till last Friday before the stocks for my PC came in. And to add on to that, I had to beat the crowds and wait till post-NY to get my freebies - each time I called to enquire, there were more than 100 people in the queue already. That's 2 hours into their opening time! Wtf. Anyways, I managed to collect BOTH my new PC (upgraded the 15" to a 19" for Jiam) and the Samsung (again!!!) LCD TV monitor - a 20" black beauty, which can't be loaded onto the wall, regrettably. So now, I'm working on my blog entry on this wonderfully sleek monitor and my lovely VISTA. And Jiaw's workin' on my old PC. Love!

Right. Lazy to write anymore bout myself for now. Heh.

This is why I hate being home alone at night. Which explains for my lack of sleep and over-indulgence in social activities.


Thank God for all the little things, like a phone call after plenty of food.

This should be the (final) official entry for the Samsung assignment - although I'd probably continue blogging bout the gadgets once a while after. Wahahaha...

As mentioned before, the Samsung bluetooth-enabled headset's really good for the outdoors. It was a lovely lovely day for tanning, and with the WIRELESS headset, I didn't have to worry bout the fugly tan lines which were sure to have been imprinted on to my body had there been WIRES. Heh. This is heart heart heart gadget!

Honestly, I think the main draw of this headset's that it's wireless and so easy to programme/sync with the other bluetooth products I have. Plus, I really like that it's got great sound quality, even with DISTANCE. Wahahaha... I would have hated it if I were to get interference all the time from moving around the house without the base gadget. =P

Furthermore, the headset's got these buttons at the side (see below) which allows the user to control the volume, playback and such much like a remote control. Woot! This only translates into convenience on the go all the time I'm using the headset. Wahahaha.

Although, I must admit that the rather cumbersome looking headset can get a tad bit uncomfortable to wear after 3/4 of Oceans 13 or two episodes of Spongebob Squarepants. The top of my ears hurt a little after such heavy usage from the weight of the headset (very light actually!) restin' on them. Maybe the headset could have been smaller? Or designed to be more ERGONOMIC AL. Woah. Big word.

The Samsung T10's got all the merits mentioned in all my previous posts: great screen resolution, sleek black design, thoughtful spacing of the touch pad buttons, high sensitivity of the touch pad, etc. The only drawback's that it's got a really tiny screen. However, heard that they've got a new mp3+4 player which's about the same specs, only with a bigger 3" screen! Wahahaha... If only I can lay my hands on that too. Wahahaha.

Overall, this assignments given me a taste of how the future of music and video on-the-go should be like. I really really dig the UNTANGLED bit. =)

Lovely lovely song... So whimsical. =) It's in Japanese though... Hee. Her voice is so... Silky.

It's a brand spankin' new year!!! Hee. Not like it's gonna be of very much difference in 2008 than in 2007. I mean, seriously, I'll still be back in school tryin' to get the grades to make the cut and stuff. Heh. Maybe some other aspects of life will be slightly altered - hopefully for a certain few bits of my life, they'll be bigger changes.

Nothin' much on my mind now except lunch. I want food. And nua-ism.

It's been a crazy coupla weeks. Been ill more often than not - with the runny nose kinda flu and cough. And when I'm better, I go out too much to fully recover. Urgh.

Just got home from a day of errands and shopping, first with Gran and Mom, then with Ting. The crowds in town are crazy. And I mean seriously crazy. There's a queue for every-freakin-thing. The private sale at Isetan today's not too bad, only thing's that I'm kinda all shopped out and lazy to browse with all the people around. Topshop's not too bad, but the items I want are not on sale. Come to think of it, the items I fancy are hardly ever on sale. Urgh. Topman's got way better deals than the ladies department man...

I've yet to check out the Blackjack sale... Prob won't, since I'm like too lazy to go fight with the crowds in town again this weekend. Plus, I've already forgone the members' sale last week. River Island, Zara, Mango, Coach, Gucci, Pull and Bear, Hugo Boss, On Pedder, CK, G-Star, etc... Are all on sale. No wonder the crowds. Wahahaha...

I've started the habit of shopping with a shopping bag. Like seriously, I dun need the paper/plastic carriers - I've just gotten rid of tonnes of them last week during the wardrobe clean out. Well, I try to have an environmentally-friendly shopping bag with me all the time, only sometimes, I forget and end up having to stuff everything I purchase into the first shopping carrier I get. Heh.

As mentioned previously, been watching tonnes of movies on my Samsung T10 and the bluetooth headset. And when I run out of titles to watch, I read a book - I always tote one around with me, in case some people turn up late for the appointments or something. One thing I can't really get used to is that the headset's a little uncomfortable after some time. Like, my ears will get a little tired after watching a two hour show straight. Just a little redness on the top of the ears where the headset rests when I wear them. Still, I'm lovin' my Samsung T10 and the accompanying headset. Woot! Ting's been pestering me for sale details. BLEAH.

I miss d. Miss the smell of his pillows. Miss the smell of his hair. Miss the smell of his little blue blankie. Miss the sweet curry he force-fed me with. Miss the orange juice for breakfast. Miss him. =P

I should probably get some eye-shut. Hopefully, the weather tomorrow permits a visit to the beach. Heh.

It's the festivities. Rather, the OVERLOAD of festivities - lunches, dinners, teas, parties, etc. It's been almost non-stop partying since last Friday night. And now... I'm down with the freakin' FLU. Gah.

SERVEs ME RIGHT. NB.

It's that time of the year again. It's almost X'mas and evidently, my schedule's packed back to back to back. Everyday's kinda double-booked at this moment. Think I really needa keep a diary of things before I over-commit myself again. Can't be at two places instantaneously.

The past weekend's been one mad party. Friday night was J Bar with Yuan and his batch-mates - almost totally sloshed by 4am! Saturday night was a sumptuous dinner with Melzone at Eden Cafe before proceeding to Luke's place for his pre-birthday-party-party. Hmmm... Now, that already sounds too much of a party for a night. Anyways, the night tapered off by 3pm at Zouk - the music was almost too good to stop, but we were too beat by then - since we'd all started at around 9pm. Wahaha...

Then, last night was the wedding dinner at the Ritz - Indian cuisine, again, and of all people, I met Pins (and Dominic - read: eeeeek!) there. I think the groom's younger brother's wedding dinner last year - at the same place with almost the same menu - was more romantic. Heh.

Spent the later part of today with Sharon in town for a bit of shopping and tea. The weather's terrible for anything except staying home to nua. Gosh... I wanna nua. Plus, my stomach's feeling all squashed up right now. Not very good. Too much drinks? Maybe. Needa scale back before this weekend's parties again. Why do I even bother to put myself through this...

Melzone's thinking about getting the Samsung wireless bluetooth headset for himself as an X'mas present. Wahahaha... It is convenient la. Can connect with bluetooth-enabled devices. So easy. Can't wait for my new FREE Samsung LCD TV monitor to be here so that I can further enhance my audio-visual experience. Wahahaha...

Several people commented that my T10's screen resolution's amazing la, considering how slim the whole device is. I'll have to admit that the screen size is a tab bit small, but I still dig the high resolution. The colours are very well represented too. Heh. To sum it all up, I hardly read on the road these days, cuz I'm usually watching some show or another. Wahahaha... That, is life.

My body's achin'. I so wish for...

The temple wedding's today.

BUT... The wedding dinner's on Sunday. So now I've gotta change my plans. Urgh!!!!!!

And my mom's going away on cruise again this weekend. I'm such a latchkey child. 

A week in the blink of an eye. Urgh. This week passed so quickly! Been out everyday, lunching, dinnering and shopping. Did tonnes of shopping for X'mas. Finally, my list is DONE! Wahahahaha... So happy. I pity all you poor souls who're left with next week to complete your lists. Good luck with battling the crowds! I'm probably gonna avoid the various shopping belts next week. Eek. I hate queueing for stuff.

Gucci's sale is fantabulous! Too bad I didn't buy the bag I wanted. Urgh.

My schedule for the next two weeks seem... At this point... PACKED. Back to back to back festivities. Need. A. Breather. Think I'll probably have to reschedule some lunches or dinners. Can't keep up la. Will probably end up too tired to function properly. Rather, appropriately.

Tomorrow's kinda a big night. Gotta attend the wedding dinner of one of the DPM's sons. And I've yet to get my nails done. Urgh. Time is stretched so taut these days...

I'm just so glad I got the Samsung review assignment. The timing can't be any better. Thank goodness for all the company that TMNT (fantastic!), Pirates (woot!), Stardust (absolutely the best!!!), Meet the Robinsons (great great great!), etc... Provided me with. doubt I'd have survived all the public transportation without them as painkiller! Heh. I hate teenagers babbling away with the most nonsensical stuff they come up with these days...

Several people actually asked bout the T10. It'd be great if my phone looks like the T10 - black, sleek and skinny! So yummy!!! But... It's only a player for mp3s and mp4s (Ariel, Aunty Ling stands corrected). Heh.

Finally got down to getting the contracts for both the MaxOnline and Cable TV done up. So within the next two weeks, I'll be the proud owner of a brand new desktop and TV! Wahahahaha... All compliments of Starhub. See, my rationale's I'd still be a Starhub MaxOnline and Cable TV subscriber whether or not I'm on contract. Might as well get the best deal outta it. Heh. From personal experience (been tracking this data since erm... 2001), Starhub and all the rest of the telcos give the BEST deals during the X'mas period. Always! So... My contracts are due for renewal every alternate X'mas season. Heh. Great isn't it. Wahahaha... Such a money pincher.

Had a hair cut yesterday. My hair's like so light and poofy now. Heh. Waraku with my family today was fantastic! Love the ebi tempura. Wahahaha... The only thing I can't really surrender to God's my diet. Sigh. I needa have more discipline.

Oh oh oh... And Kai-man's in the papers! Wahahaha... Shall tease him. This is good ammunition for X'mas dinner. Heh.

Been reading tonnes. Sunny bookshop loves me. Wahahaha.